Feeling…
Feeling…
Suppose I shouldn’t say what I’m feeling right now. It doesn’t seem to be quite… Never mind. I suppose I should stop talking altogether since I don’t even complete my sentences.
Okay now. What have I done? I’ve gone and probably offended Wayne for no particular reason. Yes. Well, SORRY that he’s infiltrated my blog posts?! I don’t suppose… oh well, maybe it IS my fault. For all I know, it is my fault I’m so aggravated now. Lovely. And because I tend to get terribly sarcastic and the like when I’m aggravated, I think I should stop posting. I may end up offending lots and lots of people I never dreamed of offending. Such as? Wayne.
For goodness’ sake, I don’t know what made me tag so freakishly at his blog. It sounded totally like a freak who decided that it would be interesting to invade some human’s blog and went on to tag very very inappropriate stuff. Let’s just say that my tongue is one of the nicest things about me, because I don’t talk. Or maybe it’s not. Both my tongue and my hands (and thus my brain too) are equally sarcastic when I feel like it. SORRY?!
Wayne. Wayne. Wayne. For goodness’ sake can’t you just simply ACCEPT the fact that – Oh yes. I’m going to snap at someone again. That’s not nice. Thus I don’t know why I still persist on doing that. I should stop talking. I should stop posting. It’s just that whatever I’m feeling right now (sorry, not going to disclose what I am feeling right now) is making me unable to stop typing.
I must love EOYs.
I must love mugging.
Perfect! Now I’m in the same predicament as Wayne. I feel like CRYING. Good gracious. CRYING. Like… excuse me? What in the EARTH are you crying FOR?! Thus I conclude that I’m a freak. I’m really freakish right now. FREAK.
I don’t like this… Zzz… Maybe I should go and sleep… I have a feeling that I’ll be more or less dead by the time EOYs end.
怎么这么糟蹋自己的身子？… 怎么这么不照顾自己，你是嫌死得不够早么？… 难道你就这么过下去？身子骨本来就不好，还不肯服药？… 你何苦这么折磨自己？这么折腾下去，是个人也挺不过去啊！
Uh, no. Nobody said that to me. None of them. I’m just finding out why writers love their characters to so-called “糟蹋” themselves. >< I’m not succeeding. But I AM quite sure that writers love their characters to do that. At least, I do, and I’ve seen many authors who do. It is… quite refreshing actually. Writers are all sadistic creatures. I mean, since we can’t really torture any of those people who are living and EXISTING in the real world, and none of us are so emotionless and cold that we don’t care when people are suffering, why not just let those people – those characters – who don’t MATTER, why not just let them suffer? 笔下的人物越痛苦，作者越爽快，越痛快！XD But seriously, there is something indefinable (undefinable? Sorry, I just don’t bother to check it up… let’s just use: that cannot be defined) in the suffering, the predicaments, the SHEER TORMENT of the characters that… just are so nice to read. Why? Someone (I forgot who) said that because humans need to suffer. Then blah blah blah. I’m sick of explaining. Sorry.
Well… I’m better now. See you! Wayne, if you are somehow reading this… SORRY. Really.
vonne
October 9, 2008 at 2:33 am
take care yvonne
just remember, there’s nothing that you “must” do
it’s only what you know you should do, and could do, but nothing is forcing you to do what you don’t want to
and when you’re unsure and feel like you have nobody to turn to, there’s always God =]
His love and grace is infinite, and I pray that He’ll guide you along the way ^^
really, take care of yourself, and don’t be too hard on yourself k?
i know what i’m saying is pretty much useless and all, but yeah, i’m not freaked out by you or anything and stop thinking you’re weird and you’re dumb and stupid or whatever. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT.
and it’s not just me. God doesn’t think that way, He loves you for who you are. and please don’t say that He doesn’t love you, because His love extends to everyone, especially to the sinners, the lost ones, the forsaken. so yes, because God loves you for who you are, so can I =]
errrrrrr. ok. overly mushy. but yup, cheer up soon =] God bless ^^ <3
October 9, 2008 at 6:29 am
haha! you know, I actually had to come back to my post to see what I had actually written in my very freakish mood yesterday because your comment made me think that I said something terrible while being my usual careless self. xD Eh? No, never thought you were freaked out actually, but I’m quite freakish. Seriously. I’m not?! LOL. Well… never mind. XD thanks! Hmm… what in the world did I write? D: I think I really wasn’t myself yesterday. Or maybe I was, I just didn’t know it. I’m quite, quite well, actually. Oh well, I tend to be overly… strange when I’m trying to say something and at the same time trying not to say it. Yeah… which was probably what happened yesterday. I was checking the blog post to see whether I had at all initiated I was suicidal. O.O I mean, apparently I’m NOT, but you never know what kind of nonsense I can write/say when I’m freakish… HAHA. Maybe next time I shall just stop being such an indecisive person and just spit all of what I want to say out or not say anything. XD Weird weird weird… >< Never mind. It’s really weird. I must have indicated that I wanted to do something weird. O.O Did I?! O.O Sorry. XDD Just… well, rambling as usual. XD Today’s LA paper was like… a breeze. Thankfully it’s over. I’m quite sorry that the breeze was LONG LONG LONG. LONG. SUPER LONG. And not very comfortable too. Maybe I’d have preferred a storm?
Well, there I go again rambling. XD Hmm… thanks, God bless and <3 too!
October 9, 2008 at 12:16 pm
haha harlo… lol u didnt offend me… it probably woke me up… well maybe at least maybe… sonner or later i guess…. hahah lol why all your friends also post essays then i like 3 lines only…. HAHA
October 9, 2008 at 12:49 pm
Haha! xD Next time post more then. xD WOKE YOU UP. Did I?! LOL… let’s see, then maybe I’ll have to tag at your blog every morning at… 6am just to wake you up eh? xD Haha! Miss you! All the best and jiayou for your EOYs! God bless!
COUGH… but it’s true it’s not quite nice thinking that you think yourself unwanted + unloved. xD
vonne